My clicking gears seize and stick
A jerk, an ugly stop to brush off a leech
But yours whirr, purring along,
Sideways glance, a shake of the head
How nice, I say. How Nice, FUCK.
How Nice I say in the mirror and look at my teeth. My teeeeeth.
Niceeee. That's fucking beautiful. How nice.
Fingertips drum on cool marble, grounding, grounding.
Hello. Oh yikes. Hello. Grounding.
Let's play nice, Dear.
Am I bad?
You glide and scoop the things you want.
Sure hands break holy capillary
"Mine now," you say and swallow it.
As natural as breathing
In awe, I watch you make requests
The things you need and like
Me? I say: not yet, not me.
Assuredly, not mine.
I'll study you forever.
I loved your sweet little head.
My head, a mess of horrors, zero savvy,
I mean, LOOK!
Check me out charging headfirst into thirsty bayonets
And then coating the wounds with paint,
thick, slick and soggy
What a fucking--
The thought of purgatory scares me witless
The tub is closer than I thought
And the bathroom rug is soft, it smells like bleach
Brain pumping a sweet soft metallic flow,
I taste it now
FUck. We're ok. FUCK. We are fine. Fuck and thump.
How DARE you thrive while I unravel.
How can you thrive while I unravel?
You were always fine when I unraveled.
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